Recently, I watched on CBS news, a mum who lost her dad and three kids in a drunken driving incident. Since the incident, it was her first time talking to the press about her ordeal, her pains and journey so far. As I listen to her speech I wept and wept especially when she spoke on how she was faring.
This mum spoke about how everyone expects her to be ok but she said she wasn’t ok. I understood perfectly at that moment what she was talking about being a mum going through the lose of a daughter.
Everyone expects your pains to go with the years but they are wrong because the pains never goes away, each year it gets deeper and deeper and more hurtful. The tears becomes invisible.
Birthdays brings tears every year. I sit expecting my phone to ring two days before my daughters birthday to ask me what I have for her birthday and the little way we argue back and forth on what she wants but it never comes now.
My birthday I sit again expecting my phone to ring to no avail, the pains always bring tears. Sometimes I expect to wake up and think it never happened but it did happen. Everyone else have moved on but for me the mum, there is no day that the thoughts of a life cut so short does not hurt me.
I still cry and will continue to bear this pain, my tears is invisible but heavy in my heart.
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